My Weekly Top 5.

Music:

5. Empire of The Sun- Walking on a Dream

4. Kid Cudi- I Poke Her Face.

3. Young Money- Every Girl

2. As Cities Burn- Our World is Grey

1. 1997- One Track Mind, Four Track Heart

I think I'm gunna start doing this every week :]

His date is coming.

(The Little Dress Up Doll: Camilla D'errico)

Today I went to Jack London Square in Oakland.

The farmers market was going on and they had a little pet adoption area.

I went to go look at rabbits. There was this big white on with red eyes.

The lady told me I could go in it's pen, that he was a sweetheart.

I went in and it was true. He was very calm and adorable.

She was speaking with my dad about adopting him.

"His dates coming up"

Right when I heard that my eyes welled up with tears. I couldn't stand the fact that this poor animal with nothing wrong with it was going to be put to sleep just because no one would adopt him.

It made me sick. He's from a shelter in Martinez and his "date" is on tuesday.

I want desperately with all of my heart to save that rabbit.

I can hardly bear to think about it now.

Waiting.

(Loveless Bird: Camilla D'errico)

Such a beautiful artist she is.

So I'm getting really tired of waiting for my senior year to start. I'm so ready to be out and go art school.

You have absolutely no idea.

Juheez.

Finally.

(Audrey kawasaki)

She finally understands.

I have a new obsession with octopi?Octopusses?Things of the Octacular type.

Torn//Choices//Growing up.

(The bonded Tree by: Camilla D'errico)

Growing up is hard. Making tough choices is hard. Being torn between two different people, thoughts, emotions, is hard. Goign through this situation is going to change me for good. Right now I don't know how to feel or what to do. I'm so used to trying to make everyone happy. I would rather make others happy than myself. I can't make a choice between the two things I ant most in my life. And just to add to that I want to spend time with people I care about but Ican't because I feel other things are more important, But they don't. I don't think some people really understand what goes on in my head. I have one person telling me I'm dselfish and another telling me I try to hard to make eveyone else happy. Is It possible to be both? I'm so scatter brained that I can't even decide what i want to do with myself. You can't expect me to know what i want to do with my life. I'm only 17 and I haven't even started my senior year yet and I'm expected to know which school I want to go to. I'm also 17 and I can't even handle myself in a situation where I have to choose what I want. I don't even know what I really want. I can't stand up for myself. I'm naive and vulnerable always. I get distracted too easily and I don't pay enough attention to importeant things that I should be paying attention to. I have no excuses for myself. It just happens and I don't know why. I feel like I'm failing at life and I haven't even started it for real yet. How am I supposed to handle myself in life if I can't even handle the most important relationship I've ever had. It's because I DON'T KNOW. I never know anything. It's all because I can't even be real with people. I always have to put up this facade because I feel if I share my true feelings with someone, no matter who they might be, They're going to judge me. I care to much about what people think of me. I'm a fallower and I'll never lead. I want to change. I really do. But at this point I don't think anyone will believe me because my priorities have always been so out of whack. I want people to see me for who I truely am, but how am I supposed to do that when everythingI love makes people see me as lame or a square or a loser. I can't choose. I really don't think I can be torn like this anymore.

Two in one.

(Speckled by: Kelly Vivanco)

This morning when I was making breakfast I got an egg with two yolks in it.

I'm not exactly sure what that means, but it gave me this sense of excitement.

I don't really know why. I feel like I'm going to have a good day now.

All thanks to what would've been twin chicks.

First Post.

(painting: Camilla D'errico)

Hi there. So bsically this blog is everything me. Anything I want/need to say. Everything I love and everything that inspires me. I love art. So most likely alot of this will have to do with art. So yeah now I'll have something to do all the time :D <3>